Sunbeams

Dear Jody, 21 years have passed since you were taken from us. It is so hard to believe it has been that long. It feels like yesterday. Life has been so lonely without you. 

I am fighting hard for your investigative file. We desperately want to know what happened to you. I will never give up.

I was thinking about out room that we shared growing up. Whenever I go visit mom, I sleep up there and have so many great memories :-)  we had a lot of good times in that room. Spent many days with our friends- laughing, talking about boys, planning escapades, dancing -- enjoying life. Sometimes we misbehaved -i.e... smoking  cigarettes and blowing the smoke out the window or sneaking out of the house at night. I remember fighting over the hairbrush a lot. And playing lots of music.

I remember in eighth grade when we hooked school and decided to have our first drink. We also decided to try to pierce our ears. Unfortunately, we weren't successful with that. But we were successful with getting caught. We had a lot of great times at Bates middle school. People still send me messages about you and share memories. 

And St. Mary's, I remember our first day of school and our uniforms and how long and dorky our skirts were. We finally caught on that it was cool to wear them short :-) so we would roll them up. I loved being there and sharing all those years with you. Although we went down the wrong path, we were still together, inseparable. I remember having such loneliness and sadness with my own struggle but I always knew I had you. Never imagined that we would ever be separated from each other. I was able to find my way out of the darkness and I hated to see you go deeper and  suffer so much. You had such a beautiful soul and everyone loved you. We were all helpless as we watched your demons take you.

As dad always said - you will forever be our Sunbeam.

I will see you again when the stars fall from the sky.